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Introduction

Around 2016, I like to call my personal dark age. I felt different from others, I viewed things differently from others. However, I was never religious or spiritual. I was just a single guy who was just alive like everyone else. Deep down I felt like I never really wanted to grow up. To what people say "adult". Of course, as a kid, we all wanted to grow up for the freedom to do whatever we wanted. Eat cake whenever we wanted and stay up as late as we can. But as I graduated high school in 2016, I was quickly learning that my childhood has ended and it was time to grow up.

During this time, I had a rude awakening. While I did try to "adult" in life, I failed miserably. Life was not kind to me at all because I had a lot to learn. It's funny how when you're a child, you never believe you would reach the adult age. You wanted to grow up but never think that day would come. How motivated I was as a child to make good decisions and live the great American dream. Little did I know, the world was changing rapidly. Things didn't work the same way as you were taught in school and by your parents. We were always taught to be fair, to budget your finances, get a home and start a family. But I failed on the second step.

I was always raised to be fair and kind to others. However, I was never taught how unfair and how cruel this world can be. I made plenty of bad decisions myself when it came to finances and life decisions. I chose comfort in food over rent, car, or anything required in life to get through. I chose the easy way out at times, by moving back into my family's home several times due to my bad decisions. But the positive outcome to all of these, is experience. I might have made the wrong decisions several times, and it may have even taken my longer than it should but sometimes I can be hard-headed. But that's okay. Because you're allowed to experience it several times until you get it. Because the universe is patient with you and will work with you until you get it.

During these years, I've faced so many hardships to the point I wanted it to end. I've considered acting on my bad thoughts and even attempted it several times. I felt like I had no one. I had some friends and some best friends, but for whatever reason, I felt like I couldn't communicate what I was feeling to them because perhaps I didn't know how I was feeling. I wanted to be happy but couldn't. I felt like a failure, while my siblings appeared to be doing good and progressing in life, I felt like I was stagnating at most but fail most of the time. But soon, things would change.

2020 the year everything changed

One day in the year 2020, I was in my apartment alone. My partner and I just separated and I was feeling down. I caved to my negative thoughts and attempted. I took a knife from the shelf, and was preparing to insert it into my stomach, then cut my wrists. However, before I even got close to starting, I felt my hands get very numb to the point I dropped the knife. Suddenly an overwhelming feeling of fatigue hits me. I was in my bedroom and decided to give in to the feeling and lie down. I quickly fall asleep for a couple of hours.

When I woke, I felt a warm presence within the bed I was lying in. As if someone was behind me with their arm wrapped around me. I felt warmth and comfort, for once the feeling of sadness and stress was gone. I was at peace. As I awoke more, the warm feeling slowly faded away. I remember getting up and thinking how silly I was that I was actually going to go through with it, but I still couldn't get what just happened out of my head. Was it someone in spirit comforting me? Who was is? Why did it happen? I suppose these questions are not important right now.

Shortly after, I decided to sit on the couch where I loaded up TikTok. My for you page or "FYP" was mostly silly things, nothing involving religion or spirituality. Believe it or not, I didn't know there was even a difference between them. While sitting on the couch, I noticed I started getting more and more videos of someone named Doctor Michael Newton. A pass-life regressionist. I immediately took interest in it and started learning more and more about it. Something deep down felt good. Like it matched my energy, my interest. While it's hard to explain how it made me feel, I just remembered that I quickly got into it.

I was shocked to be interested in it, because at the time I hated discussing anything involving religion. But that's a story for another time. After watching one video, I noticed I kept getting more and more videos out of TikTok about Doctor Michael Newton studies. I would get sudden urges to check the time, and I would begin to see repeating numbers like 11:11. Over time, the numbers would be different. Like 4:44. Times it not even being the time, it could be something else involving numbers that would repeat. After a month of this, I finally got tired of seeing repeating numbers and took the time to look more into it. That's when I discovered angel numbers.

After learning about angel numbers, it all clicked in my head. What the numbers were telling me. How my third eye was starting to open. Over the next couple of years, I started learning and practicing more of this spiritual stuff I was learning. Suddenly my life was slowly but becoming better. Overtime, I was introduced to other who would ultimately speed up my spiritual journey.

Wrapping everything up

While I can go on and on about this journey, I don't want to make this blog post any longer than it already is. From this point forward, I continued my spiritual journey that got me through my dark ages and put me into a golden age. Stay tuned for other blog posts about current events, feelings, and experiences that comes to mind. Feel free to share yours within our sessions. I love to learn about other experiences.